pinass..

im back in phis. im home for the second time after 5 years! nice to be back but time moves too slow here. hehe! i've been waiting for dis. rest.. rest.. rest.. but im always out.. always busy! trying to get things done w/c is also one of d reasons why i needed to go home. im here in the city ryt now (mla) & im going to the provinz maybe after a few weeks before i leave d country coz i know it will take quite a long time to visit d place again. c yah///

lYfLeSs...

Sometimes there's a bit of sentimentality in us. We cannot avoid the fact that we are only human & we have the right to feel all kinds of emotions. We have the right to hate or most often to love & expect to be loved in return. Well, it hurts the most if our expectations were never met. But then we learn to be stronger after & try to focus on better things to make us a better person if not the best. Everyday we deal with so many things in so many ways. The right to like whatever or whoever, the right to be bitter, to be sad or to be happy. Yes, we were all given the freedom & we have the choice. I think that is what life is all about. We breath, eat, work, watch a movie, hang-out with our so-called friends, put our best dress on & sleep at the end of the day but there's more to it. Everything we do is somewhat related & connected to "who we are" in the deepest sense. Sometimes we lie, we cheat, we hide, we forgive & we forget. But many times when we are feeling lost or lonely.. we silently cry inside. When we commit mistakes, it doesn't mean that we are weak but only to remind us that we have our own imperfections, flaws & limitations. That we still need others in order to survive, to be brave & help us to be strong. We may not be perfect at all times but we also have the power of discernment.. between right & wrong or between good & bad. Sometimes we tend to forget the things that were used to be good & we easily got influenced of what we think is cool or best for us. We are so much blinded & pre-occupied with the things that we are not even sure if they really matter to us. Yes, there were hurts of the past. Even wonderful memories to cherish. We were once losers or winners. It's a cycle. We learn to let go, move on, reminisce & be nostalgic once in a while. We cannot ignore it. But it's part of who we are & what we want in life. CIAO!

>>>i think i was juz too inspired to write that's why i came up with this piece. wat yah think?

mAdNEsS

im still sick. it's no fun at all esp if u've got things to do. i can't juz ask any1 to do it for me coz i know it'll be unfair for them. sumtyms i hate it when i have to ask a little favor from any1. im not used to that. i usually do everything myself & i wasn't train to depend on any1. even at a very young age b4, i've learned to be so independent almost in all aspects. i dnt even have a voice right now. can't speak coz i've got colds & cough. well, it's good coz i dnt have tonsilitis nemore but still got headache though. mybe becoz of d cold weather & its gettin' colder here...makes my skin so dry.....

hapi 2007!!!

hve a blessed new yir guyz! anader yir has gone by in our lives & juz wanna thank god for evrything. nweiz, how's ur xmas? mine was.. well, it's almost lyk a cycle. nothing's new.. same place.. same pipz but dis tym i had fun juz wandering around d city & carolling til almost past 11pm so i went home late. we even danced while singing & rily got d chance to mingle wid aders & greeting dem ol for d season. juz for d fun of it!

i miss my frens, family & relatives. usually xmas is my fave season coz it's tym for reunion & rily der's a lot of things dat u can do! but if u know d real meaning of it well, im juz greatful dat i can still celebrate it sumhow werever we are & i've seen some of my fellow "kababayans" hir & feels lyk im in my own place. but der's no place lyk home. xempre=)